I’ve been sick lately. Cough, sore throat, hard to sleep at night. A steady supply of cough drops and hot tea (thanks to my wife!) and water and coughing. Ugh. Thank G-d this rarely happens to me. But when it does, I take notice. And this one was hanging on, as if to underline the fact that I didn’t get it yet. By which I mean I was not understanding the message. Because I understand that everything happens for a reason, and getting sick generally means I’m missing something and am being forced to slow down (I missed two days of work) and focus on my life until I figure it out.
And, with the help of a friend who had a message for me, I think I’ve figured out what I’m supposed to do here.
To set the context, I’ve recently accepted a computer programming position. It was not my first choice of how to spend my time; I was hoping to change careers and become a full-time author or speaker or live some kind of life of service. (Well, programming is a kind of service, I suppose.)
But that’s the point, really. I was spending my time before and after work hours trying to figure out how to change my livelihood to more spiritual pursuits.
The message, as I read it, is to let go of that and settle into my new life here. Do my work 9-5 (well, 7-3 really!) computer work with all my heart, and, away from the job, focus on my first year of marriage, my family relationships, getting my finances in order again, and things like that. Daily living. Exercise, diet, volleyball and bridge. Walks by the water with my beloved. You get the idea.
So that means setting aside all the projects I have going: two phone apps I was gearing up on, getting my novel published, writing a book on spiritual practices, and, yes, trying to do something with this blog. Worthy endeavors every one, I think, but the message feels clear that now is not the time to focus on them. To everything, there is a season.
So, Gentle Reader, it’s possible that I may occasionally write a post here. Something quick, just jotting down some thoughts, perhaps. But I need to set aside my own expectation of a weekly well-edited profound post. My time and energy needs to be focused more on the people around me. (And I hope that includes some meaningful volunteer work, please G-d!)
So thank you for reading, and do feel free to check back in a bit; one never knows, do one?